Somehow or rather I always find myself back here to vent out my frustration every time something goes wrong in my love life. Clearly there’s something wrong with me that I can’t seem to classify. What is it about me that men tend to see only as SEX? I don’t think I exude any form of sexual behavior towards people, particularly men. I’m puzzled. Can someone tell me how this came about because I am clueless.
Men in general, don’t really bother to get to know me once they see my well endowed god given non hereditary set of boobies. Men talk to my boobies and not to my face. Is that my problem? My boobs? Okay, in a shallow point of view I am without any doubt not Megan Fox nor am I Roseanne Bar in her fatter years. I’d like to think I’m a little over the plump side but as my girlfriends like to call it voluptuous. I may have some spare tyres that appear to be muffin tops on days when I over indulge.
But CLEARLY, it’s all about my boobies. They are the bane of my existence on this planet humans call earth. I find it derogatory when it becomes the main topic amongst conversations, especially when it is directed at it.
When will this end? How do I make it crystal clear to people that I am not just about the SEX or Boobs? I have the same wants and needs like any other woman but I cannot fathom all this little distractions I seem to be emanating. Certain friends say I am looking at all the wrong places. Where else do I look? More than half the time, I’m not even looking.
When I’m not looking, I attract unwanted attention. When I’m looking, I don’t attract wanted attention. What gives? It’s frustrating and disappointing. There are times when I think I need professional help. Deep down I want to get over and be done with all the courting, dating, having a relationship and then get married have children because all this finding a soul mate or whatever young people call it these days is really wearing me out. I don’t know how long more I can take all the heartaches and being burnt any more. How many games of love is one allowed to play in a lifetime?
All I can say is sooner or later, these words are going to come out of my mouth.